The long for a flicker...

An emptiness filled me, my soul felt hollowed,
I could not see my way ; oh, why had it become so dark ?

Here I am, alone and stranded,
not knowing where the light shines.
Yet I realise, one day I'll find my life,
the end of my search, the light I struggle for.

But there's one thing I wanna know,
did I not deserve the truth ?
What had I done to be betrayed so ?
Why was a joyful carefree child left all alone,
in this frightening darkness, to find the path by herself ?

Still, the child did not falter,
after the first scare, she steadied her steps.
There was no one she could turn to,
no one to understand her, feel her emotions,
as the only one to do so, the most precious in her life,
had left her, shocked and broken.
She was getting lost, tears rolled down often,
but No ! She was not weak !
She would show them her will,
the strength of her soul.

From that day hence,
she hid under a cloak of pretense,
true only to her own self.
She now knew what pain meant,
how terrible it was to get hurt ;
and that she would never be able to see anyone in anguish.
There was only one way,
to give those around her as much happiness as possible,
even if it meant sacrificing hers to zilch.

She wished that her facade be taken as genuine,
barring anybody from ever coming close to her again.
She once more became a cheerful girl, yeah, that's me !
And people around her were content with it.
Little did they know, or better, allowed to know,
how difficult it was for me ;
to put up a person I no longer felt was there in me,
to run away from all my heart wished for.

I could never let anyone understand me,
nor did I want it to happen ;
for all my efforts, the energy I had put in,
would then be reduced to naught.
No ! I was on my own now,
I'll fight everything in my way,
no one around me would ever shed a tear again.

As for me, well, there wasn't much to lose,
I always had myself, even in the darkest of times.
I will never be alone again,
because I have found a companion, no, a friend,
one who would always be with me,
come what may ;
in a place I had long overlooked -
inside myself ! Yes, I have found myself !
And I am happy having done so...
the emptiness isn't so obvious now.

Yeah, I am happy in my own world now,
A world which is real and pure
in a sense more than true.
And yeah, a feeling grows strong in my heart...
that that day is not far off now,
when I'll find my life,
the end of my search, the light I struggle for.


Here goes my second poem... I hope it is well liked. Though the last one reduced my parents to tears, even though I vehemently denied the existence of any connection between the poem and my feelings. Still... so this is it. They are NOT going to read this one, that for sure. Okay then, R & R !!! ^_^